MDD

[WIP]

Hi @saltandpepper 

I have MDD treatment resistant too and can relate to everything you have had to say. Everyday is a battle and it's not fair. Just wanted to say I know what you're going through

WIP

[saltandpepper]

Nothing dissolves that moment of happiness faster than an infuriating conversation with the ex. I'm so fu*king over all of this shit.

[AussieRecharger]

@saltandpepper 

I am pretty tired today and to worn out to read it all and reply (working with family with issues and it takes its toll). I was going to post a response last night to yesterdays when I read it but the post was deleted. 

I do want to thank you for posting.. I don't understand it all but while I don't understand all the different diagnosis terms (what is mdd?), I do love to understand your thinking processes and how your brain works. Post again tomorrow please with what you are thinking about and when I am not doing labouring all day and I have a brain left to read and respond, I will definitely come back and give you my thoughts.  @saltandpepper , responding to you is worth it for me, so I hope you feel like posting here is worth it for you. 

[Anastasia]

@saltandpepper 

You are so much more than your mind is telling you. I see you for the beautiful person that you are. If you can't see that in this moment it doesn't mean it's untrue, it's the depression lies speaking to you. 

💙🙏:ok_hand:👍🏅💙

[saltandpepper]

@AussieRecharger cheers. Yeah had another post that got taken down, couldn't be bothered editing it for public consumption. MDD is major depressive disorder.

@WIP I often wonder if my medication even does anything. I mean I'm sure I'm not as bad off as I was 10 years ago, but how much of that change can be attributed to medication, I'm not sure. What was the process like for you coming to that realisation?

@Anastasia Truly, I just love you 💙

I kind of feel like I'm starting to crack under all this pressure. Everything is just feeling so shitty. I just can't get my head right. I just want to curl into a ball and hide away on the couch forever. I've been thinking about calling my dad or brother and letting them know I'm not coping very well. But I don't want them to go into overdrive and get all paranoid. Plus, they both have their own shit going on. It's just been a shitty day I guess. I'm just getting burnt out. Maybe it'll be OK next week. Everything is just feeling like it's all beyond my abilities at the moment. I just don't want to deal with anything any more.

[Anastasia]

I love you too @saltandpepper 💙

I think your Dad and or brother would appreciate being in the loop @saltandpepper 💙 

What's the saying... "A burden shared is a burden halved" 

Sitting with you my precious friend 🙏

[saltandpepper]

Yeah I'll think about it some more. If I'm still feeling this shitty next week I might let someone know I guess @Anastasia 

I am so grateful to have found you on here @Anastasia 💙

[Anastasia]

Aww @saltandpepper 💙🙏

[SJT63]

@saltandpepper  the treatment resistant depression the Mr had was finally helped with a drug that is now being used on humans but used to be just a horse tranquiliser. It was also used to get the Thai boys out of the cave.

He became, and still is, part of a university sponsered trial into it's use in the prevention of self harm. Now is does the usual bipolar cycling without being stuck in a motionless mire for weeks at a time and the normal anti-d's he takes along with the mood stabilisers actually make a difference.

I don't think it's at the point where a pdoc can just prescribe it, I think you still have to be part of a trial, but worth looking into

xoxoxo

[Anastasia]

@saltandpepper 💙