I can’t cope

[Jynx]

Feel free to come back to my other post later @Captain24 

For now, would it help to do some slow, deep breaths, and maybe some grounding? Wanna do the 5 senses? 

[rav3n]

@Captain24 i've copied down the moon walk tutorial on my phone notes so i can practice it at gym tonight hehe thank you 💃

aww that's lovely that your uncle would make time to see you!! 

there are a few dance schools near me, i might look into some adult beginner classes. so fair about the pilates/yoga, i find them pretty impossible to do at home too. 

for half the interstate trip i'll be travelling alone and then the other half, i'll will be with my sis and a few of my family friends. do you travel much interstate/internationally?

ohh i see, that's a tough schedule! dreading work can be so so exhausting and then actually having to show up and do it- even more tiring. i really hope things go well at work this week 💙

[Captain24]

It’s stopped hurting now which is a shame @Jynx 

Instead of looking at the big picture look at staring with little this. Even if you just sort one or two things. It’s a start and be proud of yourself for making the start.

There is no way I could skip. I love it and have taught many kids to do it though. 

No we’re not working on my thinking. I also have catastrophic thinking and I’m very black and white. It’s really hard.

I feel rest is being lazy especially when I still have things to do. I just vegetate on the lounge meeting myself up. I do like the reframe though! 

Im really not ok. Full breakdown mode is near.

[Captain24]

I’m trying to slow my breathing down @Jynx. I feel really weak in my body. I can barely walk. 

I think safety is the biggest concern so I might try and make my way to bed

[Captain24]

I hope it makes sense and works. Maybe watching someone do it would help. Like on YouTube or something. The words and the visual. @rav3n 

He and my dad looked alike. So much so that when my parents came to visit the girls would call me and tell me my uncle was there. They could never tell the difference. He was a really great guy

You can look and see. I hope you can find something. Ballet is really good for posture and core strength. 

Travelling alone sounds good. I have done it with pix but I don’t think I could travel alone with both. I don’t go away much. Just twice a year for a week to the coast. I have been overseas though and on a cruise.

Its sad that I hate my job right now

but the 4:30 alarm is hard too. Hopefully I can get up easier in the morning. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 bed sounds choice hun, that sounds like a nice way to feel safe and hopefully you'll be grumpily blinking at the sun in no time eh?

And of course, please do reach out if you find you're having trouble ok? Crisis services exist for just these moments 🤞💜

I will chat to you more about my decluttering tomorrow!! And like, reply more fully to the above. 

You have MORE THAN EARNED this rest, may it find you swiftly 😉

[Captain24]

So I still have just under 2 hours of work to go. I’m having my break in the offices so I can work the locker room to browse my phone. 

So far today I have been in 8 different machines. That’s a lot of stairs to climb. 

I slipped of one of them and I’m so sore. I’m guessing I will have bruises tomorrow. 

I feel like shit. The fall has really rattled me. I put in a hazard so it can be fixed immediately. That’s me looking out for others. Shame I can do it for myself. 

Im tired. I don’t want to be here. Driving home is a bit concerning. I don’t really care what happens. 40 kms to see what happens. 

[Jynx]

Sending hugs @Captain24 quick whilst you're still on break!! 

🫂🫂

Aww what a crapfest-9000 of a day! I hope the second half is much kinder to you 🤞

I always got leg bruises, we can be in a club. Are they super ouch? Aww! 🥺

More hugs OBVS!

🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

[Captain24]

Thanks for the hugs. I could really do with one and just fall into your arms and cry.

I just have an hour until I go home @Jynx. I’m getting sorer and sorer as time goes by. Everything hurts. My back, my neck, my shoulder, my elbow, my wrist, my hip, my knee and my ankle! 

I walked into the tall boy last night and then the bedpost as I bounced off! 

It’s a hectic day. 

Do you finish at 8? Or you staying around??

[Captain24]

Fuck this place. I’m leaving early.