I can’t cope

[Captain24]

You’ve gone all out @Jynx. Feel free to keep going! Mines just sausages with a packet mix! Same with the slow cooker it’s just a packet mix. 

I hope that you are able to do just a little bit so it feels a little. I’m here to help you through. You can help me with the last room! 

I prefer the adhd one! Marie Kondo annoys me. I don’t think it’ll work well. More useful paper less unuseful screws! 

The bipolar post. I get it. I spend most of my time in depressive episodes too. So I just understand what they are going through. Bipolar is something that mostly only other sufferers understand. 

How far do you run? Is it like a jog or a sprint? I have this image of you sprinting down the road like you are being chased. 😜 

Its hard. It’s a really small country town. It’s all suburbia! It should be colder next break off so I might try and walk around here where there is houses and not vacant land. I’m just going to have to face my fears. I need to try and help myself. 

[Captain24]

I’d teach you if I could. @rav3n Ill try. 

Both feet flat on the floor together. Slide the right one back without lifting it off the floor. bend your left knee.slide it on the ball of your foot past your right foot. As you roll through your foot to put the heel on the floor bend your right knee. Slide your right foot back past your left and roll through putting your heel on the ground and bend your left knee at the same time and repeat. 

That the best I can do with out actually showing you. It takes practice. 

It was dad’s brother so yeah we were close. When I lived a town over he use to drive the bus from here to there and he would call in all the time to see me. He had moved to a place near bundeburg in QLD that’s where he died. 

Nah I don’t dance anymore. Not sure of where you live but sometimes the dance schools offer adult classes. That would be a good place to start. None around here do anymore.

Oh.. I have anger management issues! Not so much since the Pdoc in hospital

to me off my last antidepressant. I’m not a fan of Pilates or yoga but I wouldn’t do it here at home. I just don’t have the motivation to do it. I need to be encouraged. 

An interstate holiday sounds nice. Are you going on your own or with friends? 

Tomorrow I’m back at work so no free time now until Monday. I don’t want to go. My mood has really spiralled really badly knowing I have to go back. There is thoughts that are so loud that would get me out of going back. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 Could do a proper feast cos I also have potato and leek soup w crunchy baguette croutins 😋

Yes of course!! What's the biggest challenge of the last room you reckon? 

Also, when sorting what categories do you use? So far I have: 

Crafty Bits - tools

Crafty Bits - materials

Crafty Bits - projects

Crafty Bits - misc

Decor - to display

Decor - to store

Utility - frequent acces

Utility - seldom access

Misc

Donate

Trash

Is that overcomplicating it tho? 😅

Well the good thing about the forums is that the post is pretty much staying there... like you could reply in a week, a month, it doesn't matter - one of the funky lil advantages of this kind of space! Maybe bookmark it or fav it and if you feel like you wanna return and share later you can 😊

I don't measure distance lol I just go until I feel like it's time to go home. Sometimes I'll have a destination or a time limit but otherwise it's more about the experience of the frolicking! 

Also, that is actually kinda legit - the 'being chased' thing I mean. Sometimes I use it for emotional regulation for exactly that reason! As in, if my body thinks I'm being chased by a tiger (i.e. anxiety spiral), I go running, then return home to the familiar, and it tells my monkey brain I escaped the danger! 

I wish you luck!! Baby steps hun. Yes, you do need to help yourself, as we all do! But be aware of accidentally pushing yourself too far too! Balance is key 😉

Honestly that is kind of a big recovery theme hey. Balance, and how we find our own sense of it in all these different aspects of our immensely complex lives... 

[Till23]

I'm glad you felt safe enough to reply to me @Captain24 and I'm sorry you have had an incident on the forums. Mostly when I respond to people I'm very worried that I will unintentionally say the "wrong" thing. My intention in posting is to support the person, but sometimes things aren't clear in written form, I think it lacks the nuance of spoken and especially face-to-face. On the other hand the anonymity is better for most people, including me, I wouldn't say in real life three quarters of what I say here.

I hope you are now feeling ok about reaching out about posting.

I have neither blonde hair or blue eyes 😂

[Captain24]

T/W SH

I now know why I don’t cook. I have just burnt my finger really badly! @Jynx. It hurts a lot but I guess it saves me from doing it to myself. 

Sounds like you are handy around the kitchen! 

The fact that there is so much in there and no room. It’s not the worst room just I don’t know where to put anything. 

I just went item by item. I didn’t really overthink it. I just let it go. How ever I felt with each item. It was more about finding the space to put stuff first. 

I put all my craft together. I didn’t sort it out but I can get to it if I need it. 

I put the decor around my house and on the new shelves. 

I’ll fav it so that maybe one day when I’m more comfortable I’ll comment on it. 

Why does that not surprise me! You probably don’t even run the same way each time do you? I get that you take it run by run. 

So my image does happen. I wish I could find a way to get it all out. Maybe I’ll find it one day. 

I have to be careful cause I either do nothing or go all in. There is no balance or middle ground. As soon as I fail then that’s it. That’s when I give up. Like today. I haven’t finished my list for today and I’m beating myself up. Like why didn’t I do it. Why didn’t I push that last little bit. But in saying that I’m going to work tomorrow so that has me in a bad place. That with failing today has me spiralling outta control

[Captain24]

I like the anonymity too @Till23. I would never say out loud some of the things I say on here. 

I know most people don’t have any negative intent behind what they say. It’s is hard to read the correct way sometimes. 

Im still not comfortable but I may one day. I just have to give myself time. 

Thank you for responding. 

[Captain24]

I have massive stomach pains and feel like I’m in the verge of a mental breakdown @Jynx 

[Jynx]

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@Captain24 wrote:

I have massive stomach pains and feel like I’m in the verge of a mental breakdown @Jynx 

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@Captain24 just saw this as I was midway thru my response but I'll check in first - are you okay? Is it worth buzzing nurse on call or something? Take some deeeeeep breaths for me hun, one step at a time ok?

[Captain24]

It’s one of the worst period pains I’ve had. @Jynx. No one can do anything. 

Im trying to breathe but I can’t. I’ve gone into an anxiety attack

[Jynx]

@Captain24 ouch! not da finger! Burns are the worst, honestly 😩

--> Maybe you're a lil overstimulated from that? Could that be why yucky in body feelings?

That's the trouble I think! I don't know where to put everything and I'm worried I will not be able to finish and then just have even MORE chaos all around me... at least right now it's contained 😳😅

Yeah and sometimes I skip! I cannot explain how much pure joy is in skipping - and it's apparently better for calorie burning than running? I can't remember where I read that so deffo don't quote me on it 🤐

Is the all-or-nothing thinking something you're working on currently in therapy? Cos uhhh not pushing yourself is often the healthier thing? Like.... you could've gone a smidge too far and overwhelmed yourself instead, then feel even crappier right now!

Rest is NOT something to be earned - it is vital and needed and maybe, just maybe... you'd actually have been failing your body by pushing yourself beyond what you had capacity for today. Maybe you were mostly successful at your list, and a hundred percent successful at listening to when you needed to slow down!

That's just a lil reframe, you can take it or leave it 😉