Ahh i see @Captain24 i can see how difficult that must with work, really glad you were able to pull over a couple times too, but i get that pulling over a massive truck doesn't feel ideal either - i'm doing a little brainstorm and i'm thinking... grounding exercise with alphabets? starting with A, finding 1 thing that start with the letter A, then moving up the alphabet... then after A-Z, doing it again but finding 2 things, then 3 things, etc.? Or what are your thoughts on talking to yourself out loud to help focus? Not sure if that's weird or not but I've had conversations out loud with myself when I've felt myself zoning out.
I really wish your work was more accommodating, that must be frustrating to not get that support from them! but so proud of you for trying your best and working with what you have, that's definitely a big deal!
journalling is really great!! even if its all scattered and jumping between thoughts, it's reflecting your headspace and that's valid! hope the bath helps, do like those bath bombs or aromatic stuff?
i'm really sorry you feel that way, but i can tell you that those things aren't true. you are NOT and never are a 'waste of space' or 'loser', you are so very human!!! it might feel like there's no progress, but i assure you its there - tonight's experience makes it hard to see, but you've come such a long way and you are so capable of continuing forward. i know its been hard for you, just remember - tiny little steps is all you need to take, sitting with you 💙
