I can’t cope

[Snowie]

Sometimes we just need to write the day off @Captain24 and try again tomorrow.

[tyme]

Her dad is super placid. Her mum is outgoing, but never so much attitude like this one. She's 8 at the moment. Nearly 9. @Captain24 

I just hate seeing her angry at the world. I can't even describe it. But it's like she's got the emotional intelligence of an adult, and that's what I'm worried about. Her feelings are so strong. She's such a worry.

The other two are easy. They are just kids and act like they are.

It's so hard to explain. But the eldest knows what will push your buttons and hurt you most, and uses it. No other kid would be able to think this way at 8 years old. I've spoken to my psych about it, and he just says monitor, and stay close to her.

IDK... thank god I don't have kids.. 

[Captain24]

The poor thing. She must be so confused within herself. @tyme. I know my issues started really young but when I did anything I was punished badly. It was always at home, at school I was really withdrawn. No wonder I was told that I wasn’t wanted. 

Me, the nonprofessional, is glad that you will be able to support her. But being that child it would have been better for me if it was recognised. But that was a completely different time in the world. 

[tyme]

I really need to focus on spending more time with her because I know she will need support @Captain24 . It's sad. I'm the closest to her though. 

It's hard when their emotional issues are supported when young. It can really affect a person in the long run.

[Captain24]

It’ll be a challenge @tyme plus the whole ‘you take it out on the ones closest to you’ 

[Captain24]

I have a new medication that is supposed to put me to sleep. My dose is high but my AD is out of my system and I think I’ve turned a corner. But I think it was helping me to sleep. With the high dose, fast release and slow release, I should be passed out by now. Before it knocks me out I stumble and slur my words. Nothing is happening. I’m still wide awake. 

[tyme]

I hope it kicks in to give you rest @Captain24 .

I take an extended release. I used to take a fast release, but I changed. They both play a different role. 

Depends on what I have done during the day, and what I have eaten, the effect of the med changes.

[Captain24]

I hope so @tyme. I need to get up early and see how my back is feeling so I can’t go for the Pdoc ordered walk. I was thinking of walking down and getting an Uber back. Just not sure how to Uber! lol!Not walking up the hills might help. 

The fast release is to get me to sleep and the slow release is to keep me asleep. 

I guess I didn’t really do much. I went to 3 groups and then didn’t do much else. I wasn’t safe enough to walk down to the beach. I didn’t tell anyone as I didn’t want to be a cat 3 with half hour checks with no leave and I want to be able to have leave in the morning. 

[tyme]

Fair enough @Captain24 . Let's just hope the meds get sorted while you are there.

Also, with uber, do they have uber in that area?

When I have a pinched nerve, I find sitting so hard. Today, I was sitting in one of the kid's tiny armchairs. When I got up, I felt the PINCH! Ouch! I seriously need to do something about it.

Thank god it resolved itself. 

[Captain24]

Oh ouch @tyme. That initial pinch is scary. The question running through your head is whether it’s a pinch or more!

They do have Uber. People in here are using it all the time. I just don’t know how as I have never done it. I did download the app though. It can’t be too hard. 

Did I tell you a girl got scheduled in here ao she isn’t here anymore. This place isn’t equipped for it.