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[The-red-centaur]

I'm thinking about putting myself in inpatient treatment. 

But I'm terrified I wouldn't be accepted coz of my disability and the fact I'm still fat. 

There's no treatment centres in Tassie so I'd have to go interstate. plus I don't know if I'll be able to afford treatment or my rent while there. 

Too many Qs and not enough help. 

I'm ready to give up. I spent overnight in psych ward coz life is getting to me. I'm terrified of today. I can't do this anymore. 

[nashy]

Heya @The-red-centaur , sounds like you might need to work through some strategies with someone. Would you be open to chatting to the Help Centre here?

Sometimes it's really good to have a sounding board. If you need further support around heavier thought then it could be good to have a chat to SCBS, you deserve to stay safe  

[The-red-centaur]

@nashy I'll call them this afternoon.

[The-red-centaur]

I saw my GP today. I sent a referral to a service in Melbourne, and going to back Monday to do another one.
Urgh. This is suddenly real. Can I actually do this.


In another note, during this recent elevated episode I bought scales...I'm at my lowest weight in 6 years, that makes me want to keep losing, to get to my ugw. Tbh I don't even see the 30kg difference on my body.

[The-red-centaur]

I'm so anxious about tomorrow. I'm too fat to go to treatment anyway so why am I even bothering.

[Former-Member]

@The-red-centaur  

Sending you lots of hugs, you've got this. Moving forward is always scary but you can do it. 💖

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member im so anxious about seeing my GP today. I don't know if I can do it.

[Former-Member]

Sorry @The-red-centaur , I have only just seen your reply. Love I completely understand, I do. What can I do to help you? You got this, I have faith that you will be able to get there. Can someone else take you? Please let me know how you go

💖

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member the appointment went ok. I have to see her weekly now for bloods and ECGs.
She's threatened if my weight drops that she'll inpatient me here. And with the covid stuff I doubt I'll be able to travel to Melbourne for treatment anyway. So I'm screwed. I really don't want to go back to the hospital here. It's shit and there's no mental health support. I spent 5 months there from Sep to Feb.
I want to move out of stupid Tasmania. But the main psychiatrist here and everyone else wont let me.

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member we aren't supposed to mention weight on the forums. I'm technically still in healthy BMI though.
I have friends in Melbourne and Sydney. And I guess it wouldn't be too hard to make new professional supports.